Ruler

Smile when you want me to
Silenced when you talk
Kneel when you order me
Right behind you i have to walk

Emotionless and lost
Unrecognisable my own face to me.
For less better than worse
You keep drowning me in your sea.

I knew no comfort, I feel no pain
Disconnected are my nerves,
I know I'm slowly going breaking
But you told me that's what I deserve.

I thought you said you love me
Every time our lips touch
Now I feel you've taken over me.
And I don't know me much.

I gave up my own smile the moment i let you in
My likes, talents, freedom and every thing in between
What I didn't know is how much I'd hate myself so
For something I caused myself

My past became your present
What an unexpected gift it is
Your new hobby came an obsession
And now myself i miss

You were supposed to be my lover
Now swallow my aughter
Where is the girl i used to see in the mirror?
When did you become the ruler of me?