Broken For The Worst

Fighting with all that i have to stop myself destroy myself. Every time I try to close a pin just seconds later I find a reason to keep it open. Just for emergencies. It's scary because even knowing the dangers I still find it my only vice. For four years now it's been a habit of mine only known by my closest associates and to them it no longer exists but now it's worse than before. And this time I am afraid it will defeneatly take the best of me