Have You Ever?

Have you ever lived each day regretting ever awakening?
Ever felt your heart get heavier with evry heartbeat?
Ever lied to keep someone in love with you
Thinking they loved you for that?
Ever let your imagination run wild with the thought
Of his soft lips touching her's?
Holding her in his sweet embrace?
Him feeling her everybreath on his chest...
As her fingers touch his face
And look into this eyes the same way he used to look at you?
Ever had you eyes freeze everytime you his picture
With her beside him....
Ever got rid of all the things he gave you
Only to have him still linger in your thoughts?
Ever stopped listning to love songs coz it only hurts you to remember what you had?
So you end up cryin
And pretend to the world like your fine
Ever tried as much as you can to think of someone else only to fail at it terribly?
Many failed attempts to heal a broken heart...
But seems like hes sunk into your soul...
He has found sopmeone else but he still lingers in your memory...
Stupid acts of a 16 year old...

Ever broken your own heart unknowingly...
And then pretended its not there anymore
Hate yourself for loosing him
Hated your own reflection that you dont look in the mirror anymore...
Driven yourself to insanity
And fallen into a state of utter depression
Stopped feeling your heart anymore
Long to say you love him although he wont listen to you...
Sorry that he doesnt want you back that he doest love you anymore..
Felt helpless without him because you dont want to talk to anyone else...
Well thats the most horrible way to feel..
But evryone does so once in their life
But time heals later dan sooner
Patience becomes your friend
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